Sunday update: It has been so strange in so many ways. I think the most odd feeling was to meet people she loved and who loved her who I did not know at all, and have them say, “She talked about you a lot.” It was also strange to have a number of people find out about Jesse because they read my blog; I never put her name in the post, just her picture, but started getting emails from people I didn’t know and a few long-lost friends who read this blog, to connect, and to find out where the funeral was. I also had to break the news to several people throughout the week; grown men crying on the phone will never be easy to navigate. I also didn’t realize I hadn’t eaten a meal since monday; the cute skater boy and I caught up after ten years of not being in each others’ lives, and he brought me food, and made me eat, many times. Time and life shook hands and said goodbye; no one at the funeral really talked about what actually happened to Jesse. After the funeral, I found an anonymous blog post in which she had poured her heart out to someone she barely knew. If you want to know more about what happened to Jesse, here’s the post.
